About Us: This Is My Story

Grief is a journey that we all make at some point in our lives. The question is: How do we cope with this grief? This is my story:

 

Wayne S, my best friend, soul mate and partner, passed away in March, 2009, from cancer. He was diagnosed in January, and the universe gave us the generous time of two more months together. We spent that time talking and remembering, laughing and crying, a lot of crying.  At 7:48 am on March 23, as I watched Wayne take his final breaths, time seemed to stand still. "So long to you for now my love, till we meet again". I said. In the past whenever I was really stressed or could not sleep he would gently rub the back of my head. As I stood there I felt him very gently rubbing the back of my head. Even in death, Wayne was giving me comfort. So it is for all of us.

Thank God for giving me a bit of knowledge concerning what happens when our loved ones pass through the veil.

 Before Wayne's passing as I was meditating early one morning, as I do every morning, a white envelope was shown to me, and within this envelope was his next assignment on the other side. As Wayne prepared to leave his earthly life he told me, "This world is not my home any more. I regret leaving you, but now's the time to return to our true home and the assignment that waits for me there."

 I thought I was prepared for his passing, I was not, a huge void was left in my world, as it is for all of us when a loved one passes. However, we have to live on, daily life is still with us as we try to cope with our pain, anger and loss. 

Cope by remembering that we are never alone. Even though  we feel that we are very alone at times. Our loved ones are always with us in spirit. I was so very alone at first, Then little by little, as I embraced the knowledge that Wayne was still with me in spirit, I began to feel myself heal!

I have been blessed with unique gifts and talents. Wayne spoke to me often about using my intuitive abilities to help others. This is my path in life now, thanks to Wayne's helping me realize how I can be helpful to others on their own road of healing. Having lived through all the stages of an illness, a death and the anger and grief that comes with both. I humbly offer myself and my services to any and all that may need them.

Yes, Wayne is still around, and we have many conversations when I meditate. His personality has not changed. We talk and laugh and even argue! On one exceptionally cold, windy morning as I was putting fresh flowers on his grave, I heard him tell me that I was crazy to be putting flowers in the dirt over a box in a hole in the ground, didn't I realize that his spirit was always with me. "Please be quiet." I told him. " I know your spirit is with me at all times, but if I want to put flowers in the dirt over a box that holds what's left of you, I will. Even if it is in a hole in the ground! I loved that part of you too." He remained quiet for a few minutes, It's not like him to be quite for long. Then he told me, "Ann you're shivering, get back in the car, before there's two of us in this hole." I did as I was asked.

Remember the things that your loved ones have taught you. Remember these things that made them unique. Always..

Keep in mind, that grief starts out minute by minute, hour by hour and day by day. It will lead to a time of healing for your heart and soul. It did for me.

This is a journey that can be a long one. I walked the road with as much courage and faith in myself as I could manage. And many times I did stumble, but bit by bit my steps became sure and steady!  Know that your loved ones along with your guides and angels are walking beside you. They are even helping with the steps you take!

With the words serenity of hope as my mantra I worked through my despair and grief to establish this service of helping others in need. Serenity:calm, tranquil. Hope:expectation of something desired. You do have the expectation of tranquility, of calmness once again in your life. It will happen for you, as it did for me. Eventually as you travel down your own path, you will start to see the beauty in nature again and the majesty of the rising sun and the dawning of a new day! A day of hope, a day of serenity! 

I have extensive experience in helping people.  My knowledge is a unique blend of personal experience, academic education and practical application.  I made the grieving process a portion of my doctoral work.  It is my privilege to help those who are coping with major illness and death and the bereavement process that accompanies both. I am here to be a shoulder to cry on, an ear for listening, a companoin for prayer and a voice of understanding!  My personal insights might answer some of your questions. Let me help, please.

Namaste and Many Blessings.
Ann